It's been a long time since I mused openly about my thoughts on having another child. I confess that since July we have been hoping for a second, and I suppose as Emily materialised without us even really trying I didn't dream it would be so difficult. But, almost exactly since July, my cycle has been becoming more and more irregular. Now, with a period beginning again only 16 days after the last one I think I have to come to terms with the fact that I may be at the start of the menopause.
With the average age apparently 53, I feel hard done by, given that we haven't completed our family yet, but, as I constantly tell myself, I am so lucky to have a wonderful child like Emily and must remember the poor women who hit this point without being blessed at all. It's hard with so many of my friends now producing number two though. It seems hardly a week goes by without someone either giving birth or announcing that they are expecting. And apart from the lack of sibling for Emily, I worry about what it will be like physically and emotionally. Given that most of my friends are not likely to go through it until after I do I won't be able to share the experience. There's a wealth of information to draw on from the internet, mind you.
As before I feel odd about putting this in writing, but it is quite cathartic, and I suppose those who care about me ought to know what is going on in my life (and as my blog also serves as my diary, I may find it interesting to read back one day!).
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Hi Alison, I think it is amazing that you are able to put these issues out there on the blog.
It would certainly be great for you two to have another baby, and for Emily to have a sibling, but as you stated, it's not the be-all and end-all. I wouldn't begin to give up hope just yet !
Good luck, love Kate.
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